Reimagining The Podcast

From Raw Thoughts Podcast To Raw Thoughts Blog

If you have been around long enough, you would remember me starting Raw Thoughts Podcast February 2022.

While on a break from working in EMS, I had missed the connections of stories I would learn in the back of an ambulance.

Many of my working partners would tease at how I could get the patients to open up and hear about their whole life story in the rides to the hospital. We worked in remote parts of Idaho and some of those transports could be over an hour long. By the end of it, my patients seemed to be more relaxed, despite giving them any medication. I had always thought, “what if the world could hear these stories?”

During my hyper-independent nature persisted, I came back from a family trip ready to conquer my new goals in life. Start a podcast and allow people to hear the stories of people I would talk with. I dove head first into the idea and within 3 weeks I had established a recording studio, secured my RSS feed, made my podcast cover and was already lining up my guests to be recorded.

For 2 years straight I produced a new episode every Wednesday of an hour of conversation that would be audio and video recorded. Stories were shared about health, life and growing. Each had a human being that was vulnerable to sharing parts of themselves and at times the first ever telling anyone the information they had just shared. Now it was for the world to hear.

I’d later learn, that being willing to share with others, is a medicine. I may not had been on the ambulance, but I was still practicing being a Paramedic. Connecting, being curious and drawing from life expereince’s to better understand humanity.

To be RAW, means to be Real, Authentic and Willing to share.

I found out that through each guest appearance vulnerability is what brings us support and connections.

Something I believe every human is craving in this world currently.

In 2024, I shut recording down. With 120 episodes and 2 years of hard work pouring into the podcast, my own life had finally came to a boiling head.

I couldn’t outrun my own demons I was facing. My past from childhood was breaking open and being exposed at a rate I couldn’t fathom. I was diagnosed with cPTSD and knew that it was my time.

My time to recover.
My time to heal.
My time to grow.

I endured many sessions of EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing), ART (accelerated resolution therapy), 12 step-Journey To Freedom classes and much more daily actions and steps to recalibrating my life.

I learned that it was not my mental health, rather my spiritual health that was compromised. My morals, values and beliefs were skewed, and projected into my thoughts masking as mental health, but rooted in spiritual.

When I started recovering, I still had my people of the podcast in my thoughts. How will I start it back up again? How will I explain and more importantly teach what I have just gone through and experienced? How will I be able to give back?

After attempting to start recording like I had in the past, I quickly realized, I have to do it differently this time.

This time, Raw Thoughts is coming in writing form, in a blog of lessons, resources, connections and most importantly vulnerable stories to be shared to the world.

So if you are just joining, welcome, if you have been on the journey with me for awhile now, I am excited for this new beginning of reimagining my life.